Carols Unsung, Bells Unrung
1. I'm really, really sorry that I've been hemming and hawing between my real feelings for you. I'm sorry that you love me so much and are so devoted to me, and I'm sitting here wondering if I shouldn't miss out of my "freedom". You deserve better than that. You are the kindest, most genuine man I've ever met, and I know that you'd never hurt me willfully.
2. I'm really sorry I wasted those four months with you. You were trash, and everyone knew it, even me. Frankly, I think you're nothing more than a jive-turkey and really look forward to hearing about how you fail.
3. Your scrutiny of my makes me insane. I don't know what to do about it, because it gets twisted when I try to talk to you about it. I'm not pissed off for nothing!
4. I'm a bad friend. I promise that I'm not blowing you off, not calling, not hanging out, etc. because I don't like you...it's because I don't know how to be a good friend. I'm good at making friends, but I'm bad at maintaining them.
5. I really don't support the shitty decisions you make. But I don't like confrontation, so I can't actually say anything to you about it.
6. I'm not going to change my mind about not wanting to hang around with you. Leave me the fuck alone already! You're creepy!
7. I really, really worry that I come off as a spoiled brat. I had a lot more opportunities than most of my peers. I don't want that to affect my street-cred. But, at the same time, I don't regret having a comfortable childhood.
8. I don't think I ever had depression. I think I'm just lazy, afraid of change, and have a hard time dealing with all of that.
8a. That said, I really wish I'd worked harder.
9. I resent people who don't read because it's "boring." No, you're fucking boring because you have nothing to talk about, other than your self-centered bullshit.
10. I feel really bad about being so intolerant of people who are not just like me. Maybe it's because I really am what I referred to in No. 7.
